What is this about?

My blog isn't about anything in particular except what strikes me as interesting or important at the time. I guess that is a valid type of blog in and of itself. But I haven't been able to figure out if I am that or more than that... if I will be able to write and maintain some kind of consistency. As it is, I don't tell anyone that I write a blog and I do nothing to promote myself. It's like I'm hiding out in the open. And this is because I just don't know why I'm doing this.

I used to keep journals, most of my young life and early adulthood. Writing helped me get out what I wanted to say whether it was acceptable or not. At first I used to self-edit by not writing exactly what I meant, or by using code or alluding to things instead of being direct. I look back and wonder why the heck didn't I just write what I meant!? Why did I only write the name of the boy that I had a crush on in fifth grade behind a heart sticker? In my locked diary. Talk about issues.

I became more honest in my young adulthood. It was much easier to put my feelings on paper. Mostly about how lonely I was and why didn't so-and-so feel anything back for me. Then I got married and "vented" to my journal. My husband was, unfortunately, the focus of my vents many times so I couldn't share it with him. It became too painful and eventually I fell away from writing at all.

(I then got really into scrapbooking. I loved framing my children's lives to look all lovely and beautiful. I found that quite satisfying. I would still do it today if I could fathom how I am going to catch up on eight years of my boys' lives. Plus the last 18 months of our baby girl's! Oy. I am nauseated just thinking about it.)

Eventually I was lured into the digital world and blogging. I can go back and edit my paragraph fifteen times before I publish it. Which takes me forever to publish a post. Which makes me not bother doing it at all. There has to be a better way! Maybe I can just let go of what it's "supposed" to be and just embrace what it is. Me. Blabbering. It's what I do best!!

So if you have come here because you are one of two friends I told about it, because you stumbled here by mistake ;), or because you are curious if this is an interior design blog, then I'm sorry but I cannot tell you what this is all about. Well... maybe this will help: The reason I chose "Bland to Grand" is that I wanted to transform from what I felt like I was at the time (bland/boring) to something that I felt I could be. Awesome. I've been working on that, inside and out, and I'm definitely making progress.

Another thing I can tell you is this is written by a woman who really wants one of the following things:

1. To make you laugh
2. To vent
3. To make you laugh when I vent

I prefer method number 3.

Consider yourself warned. If you stick around, Thank You, and if not, I shall (hopefully) never know the difference.

:)
Pam